hello everyone=D i am so bored currently, the people im talking to are also sianz. lol. which makes me even more bored toooo!!!! :(
whilst i was loading this page, i had alot to say but i forgot everything!!! hahahahha. wait, im trying hard to recall... i am feeling so bored and lonely right nowwwww becus my favourites are not online. lol only chattg with stupid koh, he is stupid becus he takes very long to reply. CAN YOU SEE HOW BORED AM IIIIIII. URGH.
i wnna go out! actually ytd after sch, i cld hv gone out with sheauyin buuut ah, my wallet left only $7 and my ez-link card only has a value of below $1, not even enough to go home la! sad...and yes, i dont hold my own card, my father keeps it. felt so poor=( hahhahaha.
it has been about 1 week since i last went to orchard, it used to be a 2-3 days 1 time routine. but now no more hahha.
and i received an email when i came online. it was my psychology group mate, telling me what to do and stuff. somehow, i really hate this cds itself, and i dont rly...like the people. no, not tht i dont like them, its just i cannot click with ANYONE of them. which makes me miserable becus i feel super out of place. just like we had a group lunch on thursday... i was the quietest, which is super unusual, becus rosanne /= quiet! right?! when i speak, i felt even worse, super awkward. lol. i didnt want to go at first, the girls were telling me to lie say we gta do project but yet i wanted to quickly get the lunch over and done with! lol...
everything just feels so weird in psychology class. they are all so clever, and i am.......stupid and dumb. seriously, it sucks when not everyone is as intelligent as one another. its a mixture in psychology class, i hv law classmates and their english is like superbly, superb!!! it sucks. i regret taking psychology alooot. lol.
oh and my group mates, their minds are really extra-ordinary. whtever tcher says, their mind just *click* and they can say something. as for me......no, i kept thinking and thinking... it is just super weird, its week4 and yet i still dont talk much in class lol.. it feels so much better with the 1E04 people...like somewhr i can be totallllly myself!!!! and also cus the things tht we laugh at are all almost the same. sigh sigh i. hate. psychology.
and on thursday, i felt so stupid, so dumb as ever, cus i cldnt understand tht microecon theory so i kept asking mr nee tat, ask and ask and ask, till he told me "just accept it" asking me to accept the theory, i cant. i must know why the theory is like that! lol i kept staring at the same page, i got so fed up, frustrated, i hated myself tht i teared =((((( damn sucky feel, i wanted to go to the toilet to get a break but i didnt want my classmates to see me lol. it sucks when you cry, yet nobody knows!!!! cus i need words of encouragement, no, im not an attention seeker at all, i just needed words of concern. but may and emily were so nice to sms me in class =D
and yeah, after tht was psychology lunch. i had no appetite after crying. zzzzzz.
maybe its really time to get studying!!! this sem is really killing me, im not even aware of what projects needs to be done first and all. it sucks you knowwwwww. especially too, when you have selfish classmates who knows wht needs to be done. OKAYYY i shall check everything out later and remind myself, which means also remind the group!!
psychology meeting next thursday after class, im totally fine with staying back till late! but just.......its not with my OWN people. it just feels so weird to be with people i dont knw, and so fast having to work with them. its just weird. agree???
why am i only talking abt psychology mannnnnn lol.
rarrrrrr i shalll end here, i sense more posts coming later, short ones, i'll post my thoughts one by one today i guessss....RARRRRRRR it sucks to be feeling bored, moody and sad at the same time, and everyone is not here to chat with me!! D:
lol and it sucks whenever, friends youve been talking to for days and days and days.........suddenly goes cold, maybe cus theres nothing else we can chat about, but the feeling just suck and i will get moody becus of it, and i end up feeling lonely all over again, then i'll be sad.....oh fuck why am i so sensitive/emotional!!! >:(
LASTLYYYYYYY i hv something to share, smth tht eddy heng sent through email, super super trueeeeeee!
When a GIRL is quiet, millions of things are running in her mind.
When a GIRL is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds, she is not at all fine.
When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.
When a GIRL lies on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.
When a GIRL says ' I love you ', she means it.
When a GIRL says ' I miss you ', no one in this world can miss you more than that.
Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person.
Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who, kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '
so true right?? haha i wonder who is my future boyfriend, seee! everything leads to my future boyfriend ahhahaha. -.-" oh and i forgot to mention, eddy eats like a cute girl. serious, damn cute haaaaa~
alright enough said! stay tune:) toodles..