Current mood:	pessimistic
Entry tags:	school

school sucks
i beg to differ when so many people think that poly is fun, so much freedom. to me, i still very much prefer secondary sch whr it is so much less complex, the lessons go at a slower pace! i had 3 lectures just now, and i can say i do not understand so many things that the teacher said. and i think it is rather weird when the tcher asks : "am i going too fast?" hahaha when the tcher said tht, my mind was like YES. but the lecture had 100s of ppl, can i say no? :) i am really not happy being in a polytechnic right now. some people are even dying to go to a polytechnic, but not me. i drag myself to school everyday, i dont hv a permanent good friend like what i used to hv. well, we dont go to school for friends right... people shld knw i am very bochap when it comes to friends hah.

let me talk abt yesterday first. hah it sucked. i left house at 7.30 and first lesson starts at 9. i reached school at 9.40am. lol! wht a great timing right.... all thanks to the jam which was super unexpected. even bus 69 at tampines interchange was playing a fool out of me, waited 30minutes for it! in the process of waiting, i was so scared till i called hafizah and cried. it was only the second day of school and i am already late! tchers hv so far been emphasizing on tht 85% attendance! how to not be scared right? okkk so when i reached the school, i had to look for the IT lab. i just kept asking people for directions and finally found the lab:) slipped in and thankfully, lesson was still okay! just something tht i hv been doing and know quite abit:)

after school, went to get ezlink card w may! saw nadira upon leaving school and was very happy, again went to collect her ezlink before heading home! felt so happy to be with someone i know..;) she taught me how to use that sandwich machine haha!:P

came home, rest, talked to my grandmother and fell asleep at 2.30, woke up at 6! ate my delicious dinner, went online.. printed lab notes and went to chitchat on the phone with sheauyin! haha a china guy is stalking her, so funnnnny haha. after tht, wanted to sleep but cldnt! so wrapped my commskills1 book. felt so gooood! love neat books haha.

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today, left home at 8.30 when school starts only at 11! was afraid of repeating the same incident the day before.. got to tampines interchange at 9.30am! omg right... too early. bought New Paper and sat down and read while waiting for may. saw alison!! but talk abit then her bus come alr.. haha! met may, reached school at 11am! phewwwwwww hah.

lectures, break, lectures. till 4pm today. very tiring... the worst thing is, i didnt and cldnt udrstd anything the tchers said. they went through so many things so quickly, and only found myself just plain copying without understanding.. was very upset with my slow learning pace once again.. went to buy books then went to meet nadira:)

she also doesnt feel too good abt her classmates. me too.. went to IT school to find tcher, to ask abt my attendance for lab class ytd. i dont want to be marked as absent for no reason and then future kena debarred from exams. that will not happen to me. hahah. luckily, she said she give chances so its okay! haha was sooo happy. left the school, went to meet dear fizzy!!! at tampines int:) then when we were boarding 969, heard someone shouted : "NAAAAAAAAAD!" then saw elinur! omg happier! didnt see her for so long. haha. yay then we all went home tgthr.. hehe.

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i dont knw when to hand in wht hwk, but i guess i will do it earlier, better than getting penalised. it is 8.48pm now, and i hv yet to bathe! gtta wake up at 6am tmr, wht an ungodly hour hah.. i am sick of the travelling, worse still, standing! which makes it impossible for me to revise anything!

but one thing i am working hard for is my father. feel so happy when he said this ytd:) : "i want you to find your tcher tmr and explain abt the jam ok. i know my children very well one, they dont go school to play, they go school to study." haha yes, and i go to school to study well and i will to the best of my ability, even though i know i cnnt get top 10% since forever HAHAHHA.

no more midnight chats w sheauyin from now on, all i think about is studying. finish school? go home and study. i dont want to fail!!!!!

sighs hope i am not putting too much pressure on myself like i used to. i hope not..

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i shall go and bathe, then do my whtever exercise challenge thing. dont even knw its needed tmr :'( so many things i dislike abt poly, makes me dont want to go to school. freedom? hah.

bye.